One Month In...
Recently, I have been thinking quite a bit about creativity and how I relate to it. My stack of books nexts to my bed consists of three books I’m in the middle of, one of which is The Creative Act by Rick Rubin. A book that I purchased with the initial intent of “I am creative - what will I learn” and have since shifted my perspective to “I am NOT creative - what will I learn”. This change has been recent since shifting careers and having a drought when it comes to creativity as a whole.
Even starting this blog has caused some of this change of thought. While I can talk at great length about many topics, taking the time to write it out sometime makes the lack of purpose more apparent. My repetitive sentence starters and turns of phrase within the paragraphs has me questioning a lot about my writing and creativity:
What am I doing?
What have I done?
Is this good?
Has anything been good?
Usually I set time aside to write in the evenings after work and my own fatigue gives way to sadder and less focused writing. Rereading some of these writeup lets me take a step back and realize some anecdotes are best left unsaid. Editing is the key to hacking away at the mishmash of sentences and topics, which sometimes spark a whole new write up. There is an abundance however not everything needs to be written up.
I can pan for gold in the stream of consciousness.